Making love for money – Monique tries it, as she is unemployed, and it is surprisingly easy. And of course, it is only temporary. She thinks she is. And then, how hard it is to get out of Prostitution and back to a self-determined life.
A short look in the newspaper and a coffee to go – in the past, I launched into the day. Now I remained until noon. The coffee: soluble. The clothes: the main thing is attracted to.
The insolvency of the company, for which I had worked as chief Secretary, was a shock. But the financial pressure is not everything. Self-esteem drops. “At the Moment we have nothing for you” it said in the job centre. Each And Every Time.
The Boss is mom’s friend
“I have something for you.” The sound is different. Despite the skepticism, I was with her, which I later called “the Boss”, from the outset met. The Boss, mom’s friend was. Hours both talked shop about your doggie.
At some point, the Boss said, so she earns her money. “So what?” Mama said as if it was nothing, if women sell their bodies. So relaxed I could not see this, certainly, as the Boss made me this proposal, behind closed doors, mom was just in for a smoke.
Just look and see how it is
A massage Studio in a different city. “This could be the thing for you.
First I was sent. But then… What stopped me? A week later, I called them. Just take a look, we made. And so I stood in front of the house. With panic in the neck and curiosity in the views.
The Studio was bright and friendly. Massage Room, Playground, Lounge. “You’re the first,” she said. It was lovely to have the views of Futons, incense, and wet wipes Hiking. But it was not a game.
“It is easy to fall off”
You took me by surprise. A customer had come. “It is easy to fall off, he’s nice.” He was also. Suddenly, the question marks were gone. Instead, to be honest, the uncertainty allow it.
“I’ve never done this before.” Nothing, he said. Also, to my strong thighs.
Maybe I would have stopped, he would have come to me really close. He did not but. Vanilla sex. Not difficult to do so. Actually, nothing other than the few Affairs I had had.
Anything is better than sitting around and waiting
It was unreal to actually cancel the apartment, hear of a Job as a bartender talk to believe this for a Moment. Everything is better than to sit around and wait. And it would be sure to come in soon else. I said Yes to the move. And also to the statement, the rules of the health insurance we could later.
The Free were. Five to six times a day, vanilla sex, the Married, the feeling of guilt, so do as you would understand them. In reality, you only have the money in your head.
“This is true happiness”
And the money explains why this thing has separated so fast: no Waiting on the end of the month. Instead, this permanent flow of money. The convincing. And you think: this is true happiness. Every week the hair. The Shopping in Switzerland. But there was something else.
Initially, I found Samy, the friend of the Boss, nice. He stood in the kitchen, could cook he is sensational. “The girls will be fine with us,” he said. And it is precisely at this point, you get to you.
No flirting mood more
You feel obligated. Shut up, even though you’ve had for weeks not a day more. It took almost a year, until I sat on a Park bench and the ‘rat race’ came for the first time in the short term, to a standstill.
Otherwise there was in the spring always this ease. Flirt Mood. Unthinkable now. With so much truthfulness in it drive around you, at you.
And what do you do for a living?
Large around talking on the phone with mom. The messages from friends unanswered. And even if I would have wanted, more life, more people, how was I supposed to answer the question: And what are you doing?
And again, you console yourself – everything is only temporary. And you still have no health insurance. And “temporarily” five years. But the real disaster were the last two years.
Competition animates the business
We had increased my regular customers but remained. Up to this day. The Boss channeled my customers an excuse to pass me. Why? Just yesterday, we had sat at dinner, had invited me. Said, I one of your “Best” better than the “colorless Thin”. The beginning of a zig-zag course. Sugar bread and whip. Only to show: I’ve got you in the Hand.
Turning and bending over we should raise us recently in front of the guests, here and there of fabric. Degrading. And all of a sudden were out of stockings, suspenders and silk just sit better.
Less customers, if the External is not true
It is less customers come, if the External is true. Cooked has been a long time any more. For the Boss there were explanations, when I had “idle”. For me, there was less money. And at this point, Prostitution is becoming a Problem.
“Service in the tender”, not more and not less, I had made up my mind. When “anal” I stayed consistent. Elsewhere, unfortunately, is not.
“You know what”
A guest who looked like a bum, wanted to two women. The Boss looked serious. The Bank will make pressure, they had told at dinner. “I can’t do this.” Suddenly, Samy stood there. “You know what it is.” One can understand this in two ways: for the Download. Or: for you.
My body rebelled after that. I vomited, I. Grotesque, that to me has helped, of all things, the Boss, indirectly. You must call the “P. I. N. K.”*. More and more men are wanted, without rubber, had to report you.
The call for “Pink”
“Pink”, what was that? I googled. Help for prostitutes. Also: When You Exit. I called. Went. It was a stroke of luck that in the Dorm, a place was free. Also, that you have sent me on the same day to a Doctor. Thyroid Under Function. Almost Thrombosis. The Good thing: no Chance, something to play down. Think about it and maybe even look differently.
For the last Time back in the Puff
For a week I remained in the hospital. With panic in the neck, I am again in the Puff. Up the stairs, along the corridor, thought the whole time that something Bad happens. Three words only: “I quit.” The Boss looked on with pity. As I would miss the Chance of my life. Ridiculous.
In retrospect, I’m glad that is no longer broken in these years. A rape, for example, I have been spared. So I have managed to walk upright to the unemployment office, where they all know. It can also make proud to be mistakes, the lost years are the result then perhaps a sense. You don’t know at least what you need. Eight handbags for example.
A new beginning with a Two-Euro-Job
I started in the old home: handing out food, a feed, a Two-Euro-Job. So much of the day in a Minute. But I’m there again, living this life. I have ladies, so nice and authentic, that they might be Friends. And if not, then there will be others.
Only flirting.
This is a shame, but that is probably the price. And maybe one day a in which it is different. Yes, The different is. Because it’s not just for me, for him, it will not be easy to live with in my story.
Simone, Both of P. I. N. K. (Prostitution – Integration – reboot – know-how) has accompanied Monique to the exit
FOCUS Online: it often Happens that women are so naive as Monique Prostitution to get that?
Simone Heneka: naivety alone explains the not. I call it “caught in the Milieu”: the women have hardly any contacts with the outside world. As a result, your feeling world is changing, right up to Clinging to a self-imposed ideology to yourself.
FOCUS Online: What are the consequences?
Simone Heneka: Many problems come up by means of the double life, the women lead. The least can build a shelter. The reference to one’s own sexuality is changing. Can’t flirt – what is Typical. To know violence, unfortunately.
FOCUS Online: In the media Express themselves but at the prostitutes that their Job is “like”?
Simone Heneka: Not all prostitutes are victims. Some opt out deliberately, not out of an emergency situation. The prerequisite for a sovereign handling is that the activities without dependencies to run.
FOCUS Online: How to get the women to the exit?
Simone Heneka: The real Problem is rather the Re-entry into another activity. It is important that there is a time of processing. To get here, for self-clarity search is important, in parallel, concrete steps like work.
Help for prostitutes who want to get off
These facilities take care of the special interests and concerns of prostitutes: help with daily life, experiences with violence or the exit:
http://www.pink-baden.de/
http://www.madonna-ev.de/index.php/mlinks/29-beratung-sexarbeit-bundesweit.html